dan abernathy - contributing to the chaos

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sunday
06
21
09

I am sure no other civilization, not even the Romans,
has showed such a vast proportion of ignominious and
degraded nudity, and ugly, squalid dirty sex.
Because no other civilization has driven
sex into the underworld, and nudity to the W.C.
D.H. Lawrence

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Rubble
I read a quote, "A perfect kept office is a sign of a misspent life." This being true and in my case means my life now, is and always will be one of great happiness, excitement, and adventure on all levels. The area around me seems to always be in various shapes and forms of disarray. It's nothing new. It started, or I remember it back in school as I venture back in my mind to opening my personal space in a hallway locker. There was no organization then as there is none now, just a square bottom pill of papers, books, socks, a jock strap or two and the ever distinct aroma of a Big Chief writing tablet. I wonder if the compacted and fossilized heap of rubble could still be found someplace other then my mind? - dba

tuesday
06
16
09

Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules and they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify them, or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do. — Jack Kerouac

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A new Chaos Card

Pjily at Names Hill

sunday
06
14
09

Call me sometime so I can hear a new story,
or maybe even tell one myself.
–dba-88

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Sometimes
Sometimes I cannot take the place,
         I cannot take the people.
Sometimes it is my life I cannot take.
         I cannot taste it.
Sometimes I cannot feel my passion,
         I cannot hear my heart.
Sometimes I fear that I will always be a lonely number,
         I think it is all fading way.
Sometimes I fear it is all gone,
         I want to keep going.
Sometimes I want to stop,
         I can’t.
                            - dba

Plily braving the wild animals of he West!

Being slightly strange with more chaos cards.

friday
06
12
09

Three Key Lock
My heart is protected under a three key lock.
The keys are bolted together
and safely hang from my neck,
waiting for the time of things to come.
– dba-88

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I Do Not Hate

I do not hate for it does nothing but decompose the soul. But, can everything be liked? How can we move forward and simply bypass the things, or the times that we dislike? To dislike something is normal but, here caution needs to be practiced. Disliking can create a layer of mold on your heart and soul that if not recognized and tended can start the decomposition process that ends in hate to begin.
Not everything we dislike can be changed with love and compassion. Something's are just as they are and we need to look at then as just that. Not judge, but rather let it be as it is. Each topic of displeasure needs to be studied and thought about. If it is important then preserve a way to incorporate it into your life. This is usually accomplished by not rearranging the subject of discomfort, but rather by looking within yourself and seeing the core of the reason for disliking what ever it may be. Once found it is up to you to decide weather to change or manipulate your feelings or just let it be and except what ever is being disliked for the way it is going to be. Either way it is alight, all it means is I don't, but you can and that's all right.
Maybe I just believe in things that can't be seen. - dba

It's the little Things! - dba

Saturday
06
06
09

We Miss You
You were there for sometime before my soul saw you and said,
"Hay! I've been looking for you."
We embraced and for a moment and gave all that we had to each other. Wherever you are now, me and my soul miss you.
- dba-88

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Chaos is becoming more and more colorful!

I'm Holding It
I don't think that anybody really knows and I surly do not presume to understand why at this level of life my emotions have bubbled to the surface. But, now that they have reached the surface and I have excepted it, its all right I do not mind. I am and always have been a romantic. I get a lump in my throat and can develop a tear when I see hear or feel something astonishing or moving. Even a heart felt movie can form a tear. When I speak now I do so with my emotions and a cry, or whimper will form in my throat. I don't mean to do this, or use it for impact it just seems to happen, and I'm OK with it. I don't feel the need to mask it as it might be a reflection on my masculinity. I am a man, a bear of a man by some views and a tear means nothing more than a man can hold tender compassion and its display is not a weakness. -dba

thursday
06
04
09

sex is not the enemy
i don't feel guilty no matter what they're telling me
i won't feel dirty and buy into their misery
i won't be shamed 'cause i believe that love is free
it fuels the heart, and sex is not my enemy

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Big Gulp Nation
I want food! I want lots of it and I want it now! Enjoyment and flavor are optional, as long as it can be delivered in mass quantities. This has become a theme, the new mindset of our "Big Gulp Nation." We are plagued with drive through windows, all you can eat buffets and super sized meals that have done nothing but turn us into a glutanise society. We have traded in our want to savor flavor for mass consumption where more means better. We no longer have small medium and large, we have moved pass that to XXL, XXXL, 4XL and fucking ridicules. This concept has infiltrated into all facets of life. Even the stores have followed suit and are super sized where you not only purchase food in bulk lots of candies, cokes and Kool-Aid, you can also purchases the clothing to fit our super sized nation. – dba

wednesday
06
03
09

90 people get the swine flu
and everybody wants to wear a mask.
A million people have AIDS
and no one wants to wear a condom.

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More chaos cards in the mix that may, or may not evoke a thought.

When they say Yes
We search and must find the person that will love you for you. The person that is attracted to the exact person that you are and will adore you for being that person no mater how eccentric, dorky or off-the-wall you might be. Ask them if there is anything that they would like to change about you. When they say no, ask them if they will still adore you when you change on your own, when you move to new levels and continue your journey growth journey. When they say yes hold them tight, and adore them with the same conditions you just asked about. - dba

tuesday
06
02
09

I will not be just a tourist in the world of images,
just watching images passing by which I cannot live in,
make love to, possess as permanent sources of joy and ecstasy.
— Anais Nin

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Pjilly at the sacred rocks.

Crashing Knowledge
The once even keeled constant change of life, with the smoothness of living, which slowly progresses from birth has become so filled with turbulence that life has seemingly become a stroll along an active fault line. The bubble is constantly rolling from one side to the other, never balancing dead center. The peaks and valleys are becoming so sharp and steep that maintaining constant levels are all but gone. The highs are good, so good with euphoric bliss and happiness, but hitting the lows, entering the valleys is a hard deafening crash. All reasoning with good is smashed, splintering into small fragments and scattered along the valley floor. With each hard demolishment the reconstruction process becomes harder. Each time the rebuilding process is longer before the journey, the hard climb towards the top can be achieved. But, with each summit new strength is grown and knowledge is gained, both for who I am and for what is developing in this level of life. - dba